As I sit here typing this, I still cant believe its real. It doesn’t feel real. Its too good to be true, right? We’re pregnant and we have never been happier. October cannot come soon enough! I have had a lot of requests to share how we found out, and of course I could never keep that from you! But, before I do, I need to thank each and everyone of you who has loved us, prayed for us, and supported us through this journey. It has been a long road, but we truly couldn’t have done it without all of your constant encouragement. THANK YOU!
Last week was HARD for Jon and I, we were both very emotional. On Saturday I had a massive headache, I woke up with it & went to bed with it. That has always been an indicator that my period was going to start. Thinking that it was coming was such a hard pill to swallow, I felt like I had failed before I had even failed. On Tuesday evening, I arrived home and Jon could tell I was struggling. He asked me what I wanted to do to feel better. I asked if we could go for a drive and just talk. We drove out to the Wheatland Ferry, parked the car and sat in silence. Neither of us knew what to say. Finally we started talking and I just sobbed to Jon that I didn’t want to see another negative pregnancy test and wasn’t ready for my period to start. I was a mess. We both agreed that I wouldn’t test this month and we would just wait for my cycle to end. We finished our conversation and drove home. We played Lauren Daigle’s songs “Trust In you” & “You say” as we drove home, her words give me such a sense of peace. Jon isn’t religious, and I am kinda all over the board. Being raised Christian, I was always taught to turn to worship music when I needed to feel safe. In that moment, I did. Jon held my hand as Lauren’s song played and I sang along, with tears streaming down my face.
Valentines day had arrived and my original plan was to test that morning and surprise Jon, but after the past few days I had thrown that plan out the window. I woke up Thursday morning to Jon kissing my cheeks as he was heading to work. I got up, stretched, out my arms down and nearly screamed, my breast hurt so bad. All of a sudden I had this urge to take a pregnancy test. I didn’t feel a trace of fear. I took the test and instantly, 2 bright pink lines. WE’RE PREGNANT! I dropped to my knees crying of happiness and immediately Facetimed my amazing friend Lexah, who had been such a huge blessing during this time. I held the test up to the camera, screamed “I’m Pregnant” and we both started sobbing together. Once we were done I called my mom, sister (kinda sister? long story!) and a few girlfriends. I wanted so badly to drive to Jon’s work and tell him, or email his bosses and ask they send him home, but I had my boudoir micro-minis all day, so that wasn’t an option. I had a break in the afternoon, I ran down to the print shop I work at and made a onesie. I planned to wrap the onesie and pregnancy test together and give them to Jon. I couldn’t wait!
Around 4pm, Jon arrived home. I had set my camera up on our TV stand to record, set the wrapped onesie & test on the coffee table and waited for Jon to get inside. He came home with a beautiful set of roses and instantly called me a liar. We had agreed no Valentine’s Day gifts. Sorry babe :) He sat next to me on the couch and started to open the gift. He got to the tests and paused. “Nooo!!” He said, I started nodding my head and crying. He said it again, once I finally could choke the word “yes” out, he threw everything down, pushed the coffee table out of the way and hugged me. We cried together, holding each other as tight as we could. Everything we had worked so hard for had finally happened. 2 years in the making, we made it. We spent the rest of the evening snuggling, crying, talking about how happy and excited we are. We called Jon’s family and gave them the news. We found out that Jon’s mom also had a really bad headache and thats how she knew she was pregnant with Jon. Those dang Carpenter babes.
We have been in a state of pure bliss ever since. Jon said yesterday “you seem so calm and relaxed, and just really happy”, I told him that I am so happy, I have everything I have ever wanted or dreamed of. We cannot wait to welcome our little bundle into the world!
Photos taken by the INCREDIBLE Lacey White Photo
Hair by Jaycie Kerr of JCHairologist
Sign made by Maggie Murray Creative